our mornings in november

a timeline of chronological thoughts

6:05 AM: Woke up to dog barking. Dog barking did not stop for 30 minutes so I lay awake with the duvet over my head.

6:05 AM: Realized I slept funny and pulled a muscle in my shoulder and wondered if I was getting older.

9:45 AM: Woke up again. Looked at the date and realized I’m one month away from being 29 and a half. 

9:50 AM: Asked myself why I slept 10 hours and still feel like I’m dreaming.

9:52 AM: Realized it was the sleeping gummies. Vowed to not take them regularly.

9:53 AM: Took laptop and phone to kitchen island. Admired the Christmas tree in the living room, but strangely didn’t miss Christmas in my old home. But can’t help feeling nostalgic of my old tree. 

9:54 AM: Made mental note to write about redefining the holidays.

9:55 AM: Realized how much I love Christmas in the city.

10:02 AM: Drip coffee in Huge Coffee Mug. Greek yogurt. Apple.

10:05 AM: To-Do list. Realized I am going to be nicer to myself and take the morning off. So now we only have laundry to do and groceries to get. 

10:30 AM: Espresso time. 

10:31 AM: Kind of in love with this home that isn’t mine. Kind of in love with tippy toeing around and the dried flowers and the heat on in my room and the noise of the laundry machine. Kind of in love with how I put everything away, even if it’s not mine. Kind of in love with how I feel at home, even though it’s not mine. It’s gray outside but home is that feeling. Kind of in love with this dog that isn’t mine, and kind of in love with cooking in a kitchen that’s not mine. 

12:02 PM: Listen to my friend in Rome’s voice notes about the chaos that is still Rome. Missed it for a minute.

12:03 PM: Wondered if I left anything behind.

12:04 PM: Wondered if he still thinks about me. 

12:04 PM: Told myself probably not. 

12:04 PM: Asked myself if that thought was a defence mechanism. 

12:05 PM: Asked myself why I wanted him to miss me. 

12:05 PM: Wondered if it was because I was bored.

12:14 PM: Bought a new book and made a mental note to read with matcha latte in the afternoon

12:15 PM: Realized my social to-do list for this week is a Zara return and one dinner. Thankful. 

12:16 PM: Kind of in love with realizing that the things we say have more power than we think they do. Kind of in love with this dog snoring. Kind of in love with this glow from the sauna. Kind of fell in love with sweet nothing.

12:18 PM: Hung up laundry.

12:31 PM: Realized that there is no better feeling than socks out of the dryer. 

1:47 PM: Took a walk to buy pasta sauce.

1: 52 PM: Realized that it’s the fact I lived in Italy for a year and I am now buying pre-made pasta sauces.